Born To Be Miserable

Saturday, March 19, 2011

"What is The Indigo Drum?" - by Kimberly Koerber-Bauer-Koerber

How did “The Indigo Drum” originate?

Hi. I was born in Pennsylvania but have lived in Ohio
most of my life.
My only son, Justin Jeremy Bauer, was born on
New Years Eve.
I read two different books that were very
relevant to naming this project:
“The Indigo Children”, by Lee Carrol, and Jan Tober
“A Different Drum” (On Community Making and Peace),
by M. Scott Peck, M.D.
The Indigo Drum is a marriage of the two concepts into a
compatible theme.

"The Little Drummer Boy"
is also my grandmother's favorite
Christmas Carol.
My interest areas are interwoven into the themes
from both books.


The Indigo Drum was a planned project that started years ago.  Crooks decided to ruin my life and then burglarized me and decided that I was supposed to be 'booed off of the stage".  But I was never a stripper or dancer - so the crooks's social policy areas got confused with mine. During this, I also got attacked by a black gang.
I did not consider this to be funny.  I found out later
that this attack was supposed to negate me and
empower the blacks more, and that this 
attack was named something:
"Sex With Slaves". 
This weird person could be part of a parade
projected to go with The Indigo Drum -
an organized crime awareness project.
It would be nice to run a parade Drum Corps with
The Indigo Drum
in honour of the orphaned
and displaced kids like the kids who are
from Boys Village and other facilities through no fault of their own.
They either become victims or perpetrators
in the system.
The Indigo Drum needs funding.  We have to purchase everything again, and were supposed to be an agency that was a bridge between Social Work and Criminal Justice - doing investigations and writing.  Crooks robbed me and took everything acquired for the project plus many other thing we had all of our lives.  I have applied for grant funding through various sources. 
I may have to change the name of The Indigo Drum because I am afraid that Ohio wanted to take The Indigo Drum and make it into a money laundering agency or entity for Organized Crime.  I need legal and all other kinds of help and need funding to get the thing going.  It looks like John and I are moving to North Carolina soon 
The Indigo Drum is a project I believe in and know will work.

The Dog and Butterfly Development Plan: for Gangsters. by Kimberly Koerber-Bauer-Koerber

The song that says a lot!

Dog And Butterfly Lyrics
There I was with the old man
Stranded again so off I'd ran
A young world crashing around me
No possibilities of getting what I need
He looked at me and smiled
Said "No, no, no, no, no child.

See the dog and butterfly. Up in the
Air he like to fly." Dog and butterfly
Below she had to try. She roll back down
To the warm soft ground laughing
She don't know why, she don't know why
Dog and butterfly

Well I stumbled upon your secret place
Safe in the trees you had tears on your face
Wrestling with your desires frozen strangers
Stealing your fires. The message hit my mind
Only words that I could find
See the dog and butterfly
Up in the air he like to fly
Dog and butterfly below she had to try
She roll back down to the warm soft ground
Laughing to the sky, up to the sky
Dog and butterfly

We're getting older the world's getting colder
For the life of me I don't know the reason why
Maybe it's livin' making us give in
Hearts rolling in taken back on the tide
We're balanced together ocean upon the sky

Another night in this strange town
Moonlight holding me light as down
Voice of confusion inside of me
No begging to go back where I'm free
Feels like I'm through
Then the old man's words are true
See the dog and butterfly
Up in the air he like to fly
Dog and butterfly, below she had to try
She roll back down to the warm soft
Ground with a little tear in her eye
She had to try, she had to try
Dog and butterfly

Friday, March 18, 2011

"Deborah Melton Anderson and her Quilts - a Show and Sale" by Kimberly Koerber-Bauer-Koerber

"Hi. I am interested in being your friend to sell you
some quilts".
Deborah Melton Anderson

Deborah Melton Anderson, a local quiltmaker is going to be at The Bexley Library this Sunday, March 20 between 4:00 pm and 6:00 pm. she is a local artist and quiltmaker. Her quilts are beautiful and she
will be around to answer questions and to be met on Sunday. We hear that Ms. Melton raises funds for charitable causes.

Her other quilts, along with their asking prices are as follows:

1. USPS Tracking Series: "The Gift" 2008
Heat Transfers on Cotton
Quilted with silk and cotton threads
25# square

2.  "Monte Carlo Broken: The Bubble Burst"
Heat transfers on cotton
Quilted with cotton & cotton & silk threads
45" square
Inspiration & images: Ex-401K account...frayed fabric
Created by wire fencing photographed against snow

3. USPS Tracking Series: "12 Squares & Patio" 2009
Heat Transfers on cotton
Quilted with silk and cotton threads
25" square

4. "Brown Tracking"
(United Parcel Service)
discharged black cotton
Border quilted with silk threads
45" square - 2005

5. USPS Tracking Series: "Crayon #1" - 2010
Water soluable crayons (Caran d'Ache) and Pro Chem
Medium as a sealer
25" square

6. USPS Tracking Series: "White Buttons/Black Dots"
Heat Transfers on Cotton
Quilted with silk & cotton Threads
25" square - 2009

7. Tracking Series: "Stamp"
Discharged black cotton
Quilted with silk and cotton threads
27.5" X 25.5"
Design combines 1/4th of a metered mail 'stamp'
With part of a USPS flag stamp

8. "More Than Numbers"
Heat transfers on cotton
Machine quilted 44.5" X 49"
FedEx and Bar Code patterns, plus fruit and vegetable 'tracking' labels scanned at the check-out counter

9. USPS Tracking Series: "City Center Square"
Heat Transfers on cotton
Quilted with silk and cotton threads
25" square 2008

10. USPS Tracking Series: "Square Bead"
Heat Transfers on Cotton
Machine quilted
25" square - 2008

11. USPS Tracking Series: "Brown Squares (A,B,C)"
Heat Transfers on cotton
Quilted with silk and cotton threads
25" square 2008
each $600.00

12. USPS Tracking Series : "Undeliverable"
Heat Transfers on cotton
Machine quilted
25" square 2008

13. "Scratch to Win"  Lottery
Heat transfers on cotton
46" square

14. USPS Tracking Series: "Penny Rug"
Heat Transfers on Cotton
Quilted with silk & cotton threads
25" square 2009

15. "Dominos" (Matrix pattern from mushroom container!)
Heat transfers on cotton
Quilted with cotton threads
20" square - 2011

16. USPS Tracking Series: "Quarter Turn" 2008
Heat Transfers on Cotton
Quilted with silk & cotton threads
25" square

17. "Anatolian Flowers" 2011
(Matrix Pattern from mushroom container!)
Heat transfers on cotton
20" square

2nd Generation Intel - A Live conversation by Kimberly Koerber-Bauer-Koerber.

Computer online sales rep 1:
website is this:;
Please wait for a site operator to respond.

You are now chatting with 'Richard'
Kimberly: Hi
Richard: Hello. Thank you for using the Intel Customer Support chat service. We are glad to be of service. How can I help you today?
Kimberly: I assume that you with Intel are talking about a networked computer system. What is the cost per unit?
Kimberly: I am looking at the cost of setting up a computer based business with many computers.
Kimberly: "Intel inside"
Richard: Thank you for the information, just read the short description you provided us. Please let me start my research, but meantime can you tell me:
Richard: Is this for a personal project or belongs to a company business?
Kimberly: Both
Richard: OK, so you are planning to build a PC fleet with PCs powered by Intel? am I right?
Kimberly: Yes. what is the breakdown per unit if say "X" units or more are purchased.
Kimberly: At this point in time I am just checking on prices.
Richard: Perfect Kimberly I totally understand, well that varieties from system to system and depends of the PC vendor and if you are want to build the cp by yourself or rather a branded PC. Let me give you the list of Intel® authorized distributors so then can tell you what is the store closest to you place and advice you on the details before your purchase, I am confident the can provide better information about prices . I am sure they will be happy to help you.
Kimberly: Thanks!
Richard: Thank you for using chat. We value your suggestions and would appreciate it if you would take a moment to complete our survey. The survey will appear when you click "Close'' to close the chat window. Have a nice day.

These people were very nice, polite, and left a web address for future referral, but offered nothing dynamic.
Then, you get to answer a survey about this great experience which is as follows:
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My comments about this 'wonderful' experience follow: 

The person could have been more assistive. I am sorry I got the person out of bed at 11:00 am. This person could not care less about my business and is not on commission.  He doen't want to make any money.

     To be continued......

Thursday, March 17, 2011

"Big Dog To Little Dog" - posted by Alejandra Magana on Facebook

                      You have always the corragio to say cio thoughts!

                                                           * fanculo*

"CIA" auditory music of 'The Damned' by Kimberly Koerber-Bauer-Koerber

I am 'The Damned"  I have no anything,
I may be some CIA operative that
crooks ruined the life of, who is supposed to be blamed for all
kinds of things I had nothing to do with, or another identified victim.
OR...I may be a person just out
of jail looking for revenge.
I, Kimberly got to be this because
crooks decided that I was supposed to be
stalked so that they could use my
Social Work degree for a
Development program that they came up called
"Sex With Slaves".
I did not actually do anything to
my knowledge to be in the "Land of the Damned".


The AAUW site says to contact AAUW, also known as the American Association of University Women, so I did with the following open letter on my blogspot called Born To Be Miserable, so that others can see what I do.The address is listed below
along with email and fax numbers:

National Office
1111 Sixteenth St. N.W.
Washington, DC 20036
Board of Directors
Connect2AAUW: 800/326-AAUW (2289) (10:00 a.m. to 5:00

Dear AAUW,

While I realize that you are busy, I am also writing to you with problems that you, as Social Policy Advocates addressing female issues may be able to be assistive with.

We here in Ohio are the victims of crooks who intentionally got into our investigative system, including the Federal Hub system, with female problems.

In addition to narcissism, which has always been a continued issue, the two problems that come to mind in this extortion related setting are these:

1. Women and men who are prostitution oriented who want everyone else to be 'stick thin' as part of
a continued problem with cocaine court or alley being interfaced with the Investigative/Auditory/
Federal Hub system which can be heard to influence public policy on a regular basis as opposed
to further development of people doing this. In this 'world' that crooks create online in the
auditory way, certain women are graphically described and then 'sex' occurs online as a way to
to get others interested in this. the target is supposed to be some married woman, or a woman
who is fat. or a woman who does not want to be objectified as part of a mental health syndrome on
display to 'show her' or 'to get even' with strong revenge motives attached to this behaviour.
2. Crooks seem to now attack women, but fat men were attacked in the past.
Crooks also want to degrade anyone who they know or suspect is part of the police or
people who do not have this orientation, with the 'expected result' of this particular type of

crime being to disengage the victim, or to cause mental depressionand things got worse and worse.
As a result of this and similar extortion related activity in Ohio, goals that would be
normal goals to reach and surpass, which would be listed herein, never occurred.

More could be written about this, but I think you get the general drift.

Thanks for listening! Regards,

Kimberly Koerber-Bauer-Koerber

Same complaint letter submitted to The Columbus, Ohio police

Sure enough, after submitting this letter to AAUW and The Columbus, Police, a man, who
was 'supposed to be' the man who was thrown out of the Bexley Library two days ago showed up.  He 'was supposed to be this, because he knew about the situation and this wa apparent in his thetoric.  Unfortunately, this was a totally different man, with lighter skin, also acting out.  His rthetoric suggested that he was part of a group or gang as someone
represented on my Facebook page - under the name of "Domino".  After the information about "Domino" was put online, someone added this eighteen (18) more times, so the same thing appeared nineteen (19) times.  Then, in the news today, was a crime reported.  This has to do with Facebook identity fraud.  This type of crime is to be expected, with crooks and others running around looking for trouble.

Also, today, St. Patrick's Day, three white young people dressed in black were holding a red long sign that said "Just Like A Good Neighbor - State Farm is There".
What crooks said in the past was that they did not have to listen to anyone and could die, get some kind of insurance settlement and then change their names to whatever they wanted as part of escheat.  An insurance operative was needed for this.  They dug up a weirdo - Jim Stiffler who I was supposed to date in high school. and went on one date with which had to do with my place of employment - Buehler's, and he had a resentment.  His dad Stan Stiffler was a hapless insurance salesman and they owned and insurance agency in Medina, Ohio.  My mother Donna, who is now Donna Reynolds, said that Stan Stiffler liked her but was married.  Jim Stiffler married Carolyn JONES and they got involved in hiring blacks, we think to get Jones Potato Chips going.  Part of the issue could have to do with Guyana Africa.  This is something I had control over?  Nope.

"A Resurrection Picture"
This photo looks like a club for females. 
Maybe they all die, then become someone else, and are
'beautiful models and actresses'
or crooks who stick together.

Wednesday, March 16, 2011

Coming soon....."What is 'Ash Art?' and a research article on "Midgets" and "Dwarves"

.....COMING SOON.....

Mercy For Animals: Formerly Known as"Meat!" - by Kimberly Koerber-Bauer-Koerber

This is the gross video that caused Social Policy to take an ugly turn.

Farm to Fridge - The Truth Behind Meat Production from Mercy For Animals on Vimeo.

This video was formerly seen on  the CBS web site, and this 'revised' version was substituted.  The original video was graphic and had a group of men stabbing large Hogs with knives.  This video was put on my Face book page by me as it appeared, and then was changed for another video - the one above.  In this original video, someone's brown dog, who looked like a Brown Labrador Retriever was thrown into the 'pit' with the 'damned animals'  An informant said that a gang broke into their Hog area and killed the hogs while they were asleep in the house at night.  The people affected raised hogs for a living and had security cameras on in the barn at night.  The security camera caught the men stabbing hogs with knives and their faces.  The informant said that this video was part of an unresolved police case - before the video disappeared.  

Another thing to mention is that the Social Policy issue triggered by this, which got people not to eat meat, or be repulsed by eating meat, had an ugly turn. 

In Louisville, Kentucky, in an African mall, there is a store run by native Africans that sells "fresh meat".  This "Fresh meat" is very, very lean, marbled with little fat, and is also the same kind of "Fresh Meat" sold at the Dire Dawa Store on E. Main Street here in Columbus, Ohio.  The Dira Dawa's sign says "Fresh Meat" and this meat is sold cut into chunks and is in clear, thick plastic bags.

Unusual tasting meat was also served to indigent populations on two occasions that I witnessed.  On one occasion, this unusual tasting meat, which was not identifiable as anything but some pungent 'gross' meat was overcooked and served to the women at Wayside Shelter for Women in Louisville, Kentucky.  On another occasion, gross meat, that was rubbery in texture, tasted slightly like chicken, was hard to cut with a knife, and was supposed to be 'boneless chicken' was brought in for the people receiving a free dinner by outside parties.  A proprietor Social Worker of the church who is there for the Manna Cafe and for other meals served on other nights told the folks to please not bring this meat back anymore.  Their attitude was 'at least the homeless population gets to eat'.  This Methodist church, with a side entrance, depends on people from the community or from churches to bring prepared food in as they never use the kitchen facilities to prepare the food.  Broad Street United Methodist Church, which is a large Greenstone building, has a side entrance and they hand out tickets to diners so allow only a certain number of people in at a time.  They have

 fresh raw vegetables  with dip as
  • Hors d'Ĺ“uvres  one night a week, and serve meals generally Tuesday, Wednesday and Thursday and are located at 501 E. Broad Street, Columbus, Ohio  43215.

Knowledge of 'specialized meats' like this is scary, when one also had knowledge of the problems at Apple Creek State Hospital, run by the State of Ohio, which was shut down.  The hospital which housed MR/DD
people first had problems with people being beaten up within the facility.  Then, someone from the state of Ohio claimed that the people cost too much money to maintain and they were moved somewhere.  That was about the time that Governor Bob Taft of Ohio got into a gubernatorial position.  Governor Taft also bonded with a Wooster principle, and had his picture taken with hers - which was put on the front page of the Wooster Daily Record. 

The people in Wayne County wanted to have a 'cohesive mob' experience for people around that area, and may have wanted to sell the facility to Mayo, as they were looking to sell the hospital as a private hospital.  The Mayo Clinic in Rochester, Minnesota has a reputation, say informants, of acquiring properties, and there have a few "Transplant Hospitality Houses" where new recipients of human organs can rest, convalesce, and heal.  The state of Ohio who wanted to be "the Mob" also, was irresponsible, and made everyone potential organ donors by incorporating the organ donor question on the back of Ohio Drivers licenses. This situation still remains the same on this day of our Lord - March 19, 2011.

.....Something to think about.....

Monday, March 14, 2011

Ohio's Holicost Cult or The Last Days of Christ Cult by Kimberly Koerber-Bauer-Koerber

by Kimberly Koerber-Bauer-Koerber

Ohio's Holocaust Cult did not spring up overnight.  It was aided and abetted by the cocaine cult and anorexics, and lack of treatment funding.  The crooks used addicted 'moron types' and inflicted them on the rest of us to shut down the US Intelligence system. 

Am I supposed to be a teacher to this cult, in this
intelligence mode?  If so,
the cult keeps calling me names.
I don't think the cult wants to give
sanctuary, like the Catholic Church does.

The moron cult is in Columbus, Ohio and in other areas.  They wale:  GET THIN! as a cover up for who they are.  The Neo or "New Nazis" may have adapted this ploy as a result of being  bored, and being from untreated American Nazi Families or being part of the Ku Klux Klan, or other trends in Ohio that had to do with hate crime. 

The Holicost cult looks like a group of extremely thin people, on their last legs, who would not be selected by anyone but others who are sick as they are.  They got into the employment sector by helping each other, then tried to influence public policy, to make others just as ill, and make others into 'sheep' by trying to degrade them. 

The Holicost cult is a group of dependants, whose ambitions are to achieve by trapping other people.  The Holicost people look bizarre at times, and are also known as "Coven members", "The Manson Family", and assorted Witch or Athiest cults.  The Right wing who sprinkles holy water on Teachers, as in the below article is just as bad. The below excerpt came from Google Reader, and is relevant to part of what is occurring in the area of social policy, which is something to comment on. 

"Holy water allegedly sprinkled on athiest teacher

Two teachers accused of sprinkling holy water onto an avowed atheist colleague have been removed from the classroom, and may be fired. The teacher who was allegedly sprinkled filed a complaint with the Broward County school district, which is investigating the incident as an act of bullying. At the centre of the investigation are Blanche Ely High S...
from Nothing To Do With Arbroath - 

 Both sides are components of the 'high-low" cult, which seems to have a lot to do with development of the state to include the Las Vegas Area, where prostitution had been legal for many years along with gambling.  These people weren't stupid.  They knew that Las Vegas had a great game going on and that people, for the most part of governed by their addictions.  If these extremist people left others alone and were not involved in causing undue issues in the US system and overseas, none would care what they did or what they said.  Unfortunately, monies have been eaten up to maintain the cocaine/prostitution cartel which would and could better be spent in other areas - namely - to assist people, rather than to 'give people hell' on purpose, to keep this sub machine going.   

On a personal level, I blamed an abusive ex-spouse for this occurrence, but the cult with it's mentally ill 'comrades' existed before he became abusive.  He was and is part of the cult, and the issue has to do with not being part of the cult or being abused by them any further.  Although I do not think things like the above excerpted article - aka throwing Holy Water on a teacher are valid ways to act and behave, the 'other side' of the cult does not go to traditional church services and tends to not be anything but anchored to other members of the same gang, and easily led by them like proverbial 'lost sheep'. 

Various political types and law enforcement types have been notified by me over time, because the cult decided to batter me because I was fat, make certain that I could not attain reasonable employment in Ohio, made certain that I could not go to graduate school in Ohio, stalked me, and became harassing on the phone with phone phishing schemes and the like, which is why I have no phone but a message phone.  This situation went on for years, and the same Mob group who started this went to other states, like Minnesota, and threw people who were not interested in being part of mob activity into 'white slavery'. 

Part of the cult has to do with these 'models' who are 'supposed to be thin' and were selected by the kooks, to go around a racketeer the dead in graveyards.  These people are supposed to be Limited Companies models, but the Limited Companies said that they were never hired by them, did not work for them ,and are part of a crooked cocaine and followers' cult.

These are three of the names in the cult.  The many graveyards hold names of many others. What about this website: Morgue Files at  This is a nice site of 'free photos'.  But when a 'victim' goes to that site to download any free picture, goons comeon line calling the victim fat and other names. They tend to crowd the victim  out.  This is done in the old FBI mode and then the victim is supposed to be mentally ill 'hearing voices', as part of a scam they ran in Ohio.  Maybe these people are the 'beautiful people' and maybe they are just cocaine junkies.  Studies have shown in the past that people in general like more attractive people and correlate criminal behaviour more with certain physical types than others.  Being born with a "winning hand" meant exactly that bfore, and still does today.  In addition to this being the case,. crooks have a tendency to strand victim, so that even if they maintain good physical health, they are supposed to be a bused by people who have the money for special beauty treatments, and other things, even if this money was not attained legally.  As a result, songwriters like Christina Aguilera wrote and sang songs like "Beautiful People" for everyone else.  The song lyrics appear below and are very relevant to calling people 'fat', 'homely', and other names.  By the way, this was the song that I would vote for to get the public more involved in this particular issue.  Christina, a very attractive blonde herself,  was superb during halftime of the Superbowl recently singing "God Bless America" and "The Star Spangled Banner".  Her song lyrics for "The Rest Of Us", which is esteem building, are below:

Christina Aguilera in "Burlesque"

Beautiful People:   Christina Aquilera Lyrics
Artist: by Christina Aguilera

(mmhm hmmm)
(ohh yeah)
(mmaa ahhh)
Everyday is so wonderful, then suddenly,its hard to breath
Now and then I get insecure, from all the pain
I’m so ashamed
I am beautiful no matter what they say

Words can’t bring me down
I am beautiful in every single way
Yes words can’t bring me down (ohhh nooo)
So don’t you bring me down today
(mmmhmm mmm)

To all your friends you’re delirious
So consumed in all your doom…. (oohh mmm)
Trying hard to fill that emptiness,
The pieces gone,left the puzzle undone,
Aint that the way it is?

courtesy of TopLyrics.Info

You are beautiful no matter what they say
Words can’t bring you down (ohhh noo)
you are beautiful in every single way
Yes words can’t bring you down (ohhh noo)

So don’t you bring me down today

No matter what we do (No matter what we do)
No matter what we say (No matter what we say)
We’re the song inside the tune (yeah yeah oh yeaaahhh)
Full of beautiful mistakes
And everywhere we go (And everywhere we go)
the sun will always shine (the sun will always always shine….)
And tomorrow we might awake
on the other side

‘Cause we are beautiful no matter what they say
Yes words won’t bring us down (ohhh noo)
we are beautiful in every single way
Yes words can’t bring us down (ohhh noo)
So don’t you bring me down today

Source: courtesy of TopLyrics.Info

Recently I went to COWI, also known as Central Ohio Workforce Investment located at 1111 E Braod Street, Columbus, Ohio  43215.  My employment counselor there is Michael Simpkins. The procedure there is to pick out and apply for jobs, then an employment counselor is supposed to help.  Mr Simpkins, who has really, really long grey hair which he wears in a pony tail, and wears a black long coat and black hat, says that he went to Bosnia and is good friends of Governor Kasich.  He told me to apply for a certain job, and knows that I am moving to another state, but told me only that my resume needs work, which I already know.  I have been in this dilemma for the last 15 years, as if I caused it. Mr. Simpkins seems like a nice man, but "looks like" he could be part of the cult.

Episcopal/Anglican Church Shield in blue

Episcopal/Anglican Church Shield in blue
"I have been a member of the Episcopal Church all of my life"

About Me

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Hello! I am a Social Worker (since 1990) and a writer. I am seeking writing jobs, funding for my Writing business called "the Indigo Drum" and a way to run an office again, plus a car.